||[Jan. 13th, 2008|02:34 am]
So I've been quiet a while. Domesticity isn't so bad. I feel nice and warm... being home. Thinking that I could call somewhere home in this shitty place.
Even though I still feel sad, even though I'm.. lonely without Al. Even though I feel like I've been estranged from my family... I still feel wanted and like it'll all be okay with Roy. He never asks about Mom or Al or brings up any of the homonculi that are here. No real unecessary bad topics.
I wish Al wouldn't have... ah... I guess... you could say disowned me. It feels like I have been. It hurts to put it that way but, Al and Mom, they won't even contact me, let alone come see me. It makes me feel like I did something bad. Maybe I did, or maybe after all the things I messed up at, they decided it wasn't worth it or anything could have run through their heads....
Roy, though... I know he wants me and wants me around. I know he loves me, though it isn't quite the same, and it's enough to sooth the wound.
Between him and Ruby, who feels like a little sister to me, I... think I'll be okay even though it still hurts, I have other things that make it better this time around.
Thanks Ruby. Thanks Roy...